in retrospect

this morning we had a lecture on elite doctors and foundations stones. it wasn't particularly exciting, but it intrigued my mind.

proactive or reactive? which one would you consider yourself to be.
do you ask why things went wrong when they do? or ask how do you prevent things from going wrong when they do go wrong, and how to improve the situation?

i think it's important that we are once in a while reminded of what is important to us and how to prioritise and remain driven.

came back home in the afternoon and saw 2 emails from daddy. daddy asked if i wanted to go back for easter for consultation. i was quite surprised actually when i saw his email. my parents are worried, so am i, but i think i won't go back home. besides it wouldn't make a difference, i will still see a doctor around the same time because i have a specialist's appointment in easter and if i flew back just to see a doctor it would be a waste of money especially since i already have an appointment. besides, it's free to see a doctor here. so i guess depending on the results of my ultrasound and biopsy, i may or may not fly home after that depending on whether i need any treatment or not (touchwood!)

i wish someone was here with me though, i really don't want to go to the hospital on my own this thursday.